And so it will seem.....

And so it will seem, that times passes and all that a man cherish or once cherished dissapears right before his very eyes. To get that message that you thought you will never get, the sign of a women scorned the sign of love lost and no need to go back. But for a man will forever carry his head above his shoulders, we roll with the punches neck steadily out and await the weekend for the next round.

I love lyrics from Anthony Hamilton when he says, if he has loved before, it will be trully diffucult for him to love again or for the fear of a broken heart. What he does not say though is that we move on, with hearts filled with hidden treasure places of love. And for the next, it becomes a journey of tapping to love to get to that spot. I guess, this is your goodbye. Well for the records, my phone will remain on standby, even though I'm not going to let this life pass me by. For once, you were more than a dream to me, you were the driver of the dynasty and so long is this lullaby. I have let go, but doubt that I will ever say Goodbye.

Joy and Happiness be upon you, for you have given me the gift of life. You are trully an amazing mother. Yes this is about you Wawa.....and so it will seem life has taken another turn today.

Thee Unbearable Time

Tick tock, the sound representing the passing of time. And so it will seem that these tear drops seem to overflow every night. I grab my Sony Digital Camera and see the smile that is you. And it dawns to me that with every passing of time and each tear drop you will still be myne. I slowly turn my head left and right and left again with my face facing the pillow for a view towards the ceiling might make my mind wonder and tear will run down my face. So peacefully, I choose to lay with my stomach for a good night sleep and for the heart to mend.

A thought of you still keeps me up at night. I heard a story of finding balance by tapping into your origin and each day that passes it gets you closer to that moment but more importantly it becomes an anticipation for me to that day. These are the things that make me proud of being an African, the connection of soul and origins will be tracked through the seed line. For just like at the end of the rainbow lies a pot of gold, at the begginning of your journey my Son your father will await and should the valleys of life set two path for us. In your shadow I will forever exist and I hope you choose to remain grounded for that's a place I will choose to dwell on every step of the way. You are trully loved and continue to reflect God's blessing in my life.

Sidetable Connection

What a weekend, your brother is now just over a month old. Though he got me a bit scared this past Friday as I had to rush him to hospital. I wonder what the medical bill will state, as this was clearly a case of over protective parenting. But you know what they say better be safe than sorry. Spend the most part of the weekend indoors and reflecting on our pictures and you will be glad to know that yours remains by my bedside. It's the one with your big smile and me in a green stripe shirt.

I tried to call this weekend, been a while since I've spoken to you. Thought that she will be over the hurdle, but it seems I have to give her abit of time to get used to the path equalling no longer us. It's really a tough journey for me, but one thing remains in all of this. My love gets stronger with each passing moment, and you remain the symbol of my Joy. I'm really missing you and miss your smile and if anything, try to be a better man than you father.

I'm still striving towards a better me, and perhaps one day we will both reflect on these current times as triumphs in our journey. Respect and patience is key to being a better man and you can only achieve that if you humble yourself to the world. Live each day with a purpose and make your mark in your path, for it is through your journey that you will reap what you sow. Life is so rewarding and grab each and every opportunity, never be scared to fail for it's how we as human beings learn. But most importantly work on your ability to listen, for it will ensure that your greatness is achieved much sooner than anticipated or planned.

Ooopps, before I forget! I still look at your picture every morning and say a prayer for your continuous blessings and I know that Grace is forever upon you my child.